all of my songs

[Esther]

just to tell you guys i wrote ,like, 6 or 7 songs this past year...i think i nisscounted last time...oopsie....it's from newest to oldest

my Principal gave me a challange to write up a ong for before i leave....here'swhat i got so far

This is my 12 day Journey
So come with me
We were separated from our families
to live as a community

I was scared and nervous before i even went on the plane
b/c my mom went insane
packing our luggage
giving us kisses
saying goodbye
my mom didn't want to let me go
then we all cried

While we were on the plane
My sister held my hand trying to cut off my circulation to my arms
And boy!..i thought i would be like her ..but no, i was calm
she was a nervous wreck

i'm planning to add something about the days...like for example

on the 5th day
We climbed the top of the Wall/ the Kotel - that's the wailing wall if you guys didn't realise that-

I was afraid i might fall
cause i'm nervouse about things like that

Then we climbed a cliff and
took a dip in an oasis
i watched some boys and girls actually wrestle each other
i said "Oh, brother!"
trying not to get wet..

additions to a new song..just made it up on the spot ..it's about being dumped b/c of a bet...i've squashed two of 'em together..hope you like it so far!



Have you ever noticed what kind of game you were playing?


Did you ever notice that love was a risk worth taking?


That we weren't faking?


That my heart wasn't supposed to be breaking?..

You're Everthing i wanted

You're Everything i need

now all i have to do is

Wait impatiently

for you to come beside me

my heart's broken all around

i'm tired of playing now

i'm tired of getting beatten down

just because of this

you couldn't resist

breaking me..

go ahead try to make me

you couldn't exist because of this

stupid game

oh you're so lame....

you put me to shame..

i already hate this game...

"This is my facade" and rules that i learned from movies

Here's the most recent song for y'all hope ya like it **oh jeez i sounded just like a southerner**...

This is my facade

This is my skin

You can only tell who i am from within

on the outside i may look happy and show you what i've got but looking from within i'm not

This is my facade

This is my skin

You can only tell who i am from within

I try to live in harmony and balance entwined

but i always end up being in a bind

Like a rope that's tied around me and teathered

i fall softly like a delacate feather

(Then) i find out (that) i'm not always like that

This is my facade

This is my skin

You can only tell who i am from within

i hold my feelings inside

Sometimes i feel like i want ot hide

I hold out my other feelings like a shield

Suddenly walking through hallways is like a bombarded feild

My happines is my armor

There is no softness inside

This is what it feels like to be on the outside

This is my only facade

This is my only skin

You can only tell who i am only from within

Go ahead, look inside my delicate brown eyes

you won't find anything that's (dark) on the outside

Rules that i learned from watching movies

1. Things aren't always what they appear to be.

for instance that little neighborhood dog you always walk by to get home might not always be "Man's best friend"...if you get very close to it...it might tear your clothes to shreds if you don't watch your back.

2. Never go outside with a cape on and try to fly off the roof...believe me...US...as HUMANS....don't FLY...We'll go SPLAT!...*Foolish Mortal!...**laughs evily** *.....

3. Another thing related to capes: if you're flying near an airplane engine....Good luck to you...You won't be the same WHEN and IF you are coming out the other end...

4. Try to take off and land in an area where your secret can be concealed BAD EXAMPLE: A busy highway GOOD EXAMPLE: an Alleyway

5. Fly high enough so that you CAN'T BE SEEN FROM THE GROUND...You don't want people freaking out about it.

6. Show courtes in all matters involving flight. Never use your ability to fly as a method of SHOWING OFF...You might slam into a building that way...* as i say again "Foolish Mortal"*

7. When the Rearview mirior of a car says "objects may seem closer than they appear"...Well...Let's just leave it at that...if you don't follow this rule..and instead of being smart you step on the gas because you think someone's trying to cut you off...well i don't want to be responsible to what happens afterwards

8. Y'know that big thing with wings? or that really bright light at the end of the tunnel?...it might not always be a bird or Heaven.

9. Smaller flying objects must always give way to larger ones by taking a lower course

and

10. Don't have a drink while driving you might hit a speed bump and spill your drink...in addition...don't substitute the drink for an alcoholic one...you'll get in a car crash and injure or worse kill someone in that same car....


new song!
Current mood: amused


Go ahead and make me, Go ahead try to break me…
Oh you can’t ‘cause I can’t feel the pain you see
Sometimes I can fly
Sometimes I have to lie
Sometimes I cry and
Sometimes I just *come back* on my knees

This world needs a Supergirl to try and save this world,
But sometimes you have to be all you can be
Sometimes you might need me

I can see through you but you can’t see through me
‘Cause I can tell you what you don’t want to see
I can feel hurt I can hear your pain
The only thing you have to do is call my name

Go ahead and make me, Go ahead try to break me…
Oh you can’t ‘cause I can’t feel the pain you see
Sometimes I can fly
Sometimes I have to lie
Sometimes I cry and
Sometimes I just *come back* on my knees

* origonally the lyrics to this part was fall down on my knes...but it kinda didn't make sense to put that in there....y'know it looks like this
Positive sentence
Negative sentence,
Negative sentence,
Negative sentence...

doesn't sound right either..i'm glad i fixed it..


doing chores and more about thy song how to play it


bored now...doing chores...whoop-de-doo and ya-hoo..emphasise an extra hoo more stuff on my song Soft-Spoken...it's the very last one on the bottom:
Try to throw my life away
Try to throw it at the door so you can pick it up and
Look at it once more
Just try to throw it out today

Honestly I want to get my permit to
Drive a car
I want to get away from this life and
Live very far

I want to play my guitar
I want to learn some new things
I want to live my life and
Learn a few things

Then again
I need to sit down and wonder what I should be
I have no idea
I have no clue
All I need now is for me to be true and
Try not to throw my life away
I just can’t
No I just won’t do that
I can’t just not live my life without it
Not being my way
So go ahead

Try to throw my life away
Try to throw it at the door so you can pick it up and
Look at it once more
And ask me what I should say

I’ve got to sing a better note
I’ve got to sing in a better key
So i can write what I wrote and
let it be me


Try to throw my life awa-a-a-y
Try to throw it at the door so you can pick it up and
Look at it once mo-o-ore
And ask me what I should say

the chords so far are C G D E arpegio/bluegrass country sound repeat then A D then E C G D. Wow i sound like a shampoo commercial Rinse. lather.Repeat maybe i need to change the chords...(contemplating right now go on and talk)


made new chords for the ending of the song ...the chords so far are C G D E arpegio/bluegrass country sound, repeat then A D, then E C G D. here's the new chords instructions y' know how you play a D? well.. move your fingers in the same area but one chord up.Do the same to the other chords but keep your fourth finger on the 5th string then move your 2nd and 3rd fingers up each time you play until your reach the first two strings...keep them there for two strums arpeggio style......then repeat the song over


new songs
Current mood: chipper


changed chords to as yet untitled song also.. look at the bottom...another song

Every word i say

Just make it/these feelings go away

And then you turn away

Oh no, i would love to say i told you so but,

i 'd hate to see you go

So now i'll wait before it's too late

You were my father i knew

I also knew that this family's through

So i'm looking for a new day to say...



For now it's o.k. i'll add more when i can...i also made chords that really work this time: Am,F,C,G

and

Look into my mind. see what you wanna find.....I wish i could fly high into the sky...



Final edit For "Softspoken" and turning 18 this year
Current mood: accomplished


Final edit...hopefully

Chorus/Verse 1

I try to speak, i know that it's absurd, because i know that i can't be heard. ' cause i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken.

Verse 2

Everytime you argue with mom, i try not to cry or i go downstairs and turn away. Your heart's cold and clenched while mine is fragile and drenched. My soul is my fire my only desire is that it shouldn't be broken 'cause i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken

Verse 3

Everytime i say a word, you shout and say that's absurd but i know that it isn't. I can't help that my soul is bleeding and that i'm needing a father

Verse 4

One day i talked to you on the phone you said that you were alone but really you weren't. I tried talking to you but you wont listen. My heart said that you won't be missin' me. Because i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken

Verse 5

You said to mom that you're gonna divorce, i said of couse there's no need of you here, It's because of you i fear, that my heart's contorted and bleeding and that i'm needing a father.I try to speak, i know it's absurd,because i know that i can't be heard 'cause i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken

Verse 6

You say that in August you're leaving work for two weeks, Just sit down and THINK...You can't even leave work for two minutes Ohhh...yeah

Verse7

I wear a microphone in school....yes i know it's cool..i try to speak i know it's absurd because here i can be heard, but i don't like to in this situation, Because i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken

Verse 8

I cry myself to sleep, just to think that you haven't been here in and out for 17 years of my life it has given me strife and pain for you to think that i'm insane. ohhh...yeah

Verse 9
Next time you call, think twice, 'cause by then i won't play nice. I try to speak, i know that it's absurd, because i know that i can't be heard. ' cause i'm so softspoken, yes i'm so softspoken. Your heart and soul is frozen while mine is shatttered and broken And now guess what? i'm not so softspoken anymore...Yes, i'm not so softspoken..... anymore





also...i'm so scared...i'm turning 18 this year...that means *EEKK* i'm gonna be an adult. and i'll be able to drink in Europe...then two years later...i'm gonna be 20.. then a year after that i'll be 21...oh lord! i'll be able to Drink in this Country.*insert piercing scream here*



i have created 3 fanfictions over the past year...two of which i'm not done with..one of them revoles around your favourite PRDT character Kira Ford..go check it out!
here's the link to my blog site
http://blog.myspace.com/15455131...hey guys!..don't count the extra stuff i added here..like the rules...i don't think they're gonna be on th CD i'm trying to make,,,,

[Darth_Vader]

excellent

Good songs, and Great Rules to live by.

new song today..this one's for all the guys at the school dance that broke my heart ...y'know the time after you dance with the cute guy only to find out that they only danced with you on a bet...

Have you ever noticed what kind of game you were playing?
Did you ever notice that love was a risk worth taking?
That we weren't faking?
That my heart wasn't supposed to be breaking?..

that's what i got so far....not really crummy... but it's something..eh?
-Esther

[jasonclealuver]

nice

[Esther]

an update u guys n'gals!
i'll post pics from my sketchbook..if i have a chance to...before and after i go to Israel..

... and i'll post the tabs to my song... probably...that's not the title...it's Sofspoken..i'll give you guy the correct chords to it...as to exaclty how i play it...ok?.. this wednesday...they're really great guitar chords!...
P.s.Watch out for the flying monkeys!
-Esther
p.p.s. that's my motto to Emmma...she gets a kick out of it everytime! ;D

additions to a new song..just made it up on the spot ..it's about being dumped b/c of a bet...i've squashed two of 'em together..hope you like it so far!



Have you ever noticed what kind of game you were playing?


Did you ever notice that love was a risk worth taking?


That we weren't faking?


That my heart wasn't supposed to be breaking?..

You're Everthing i wanted

You're Everything i need

now all i have to do is

Wait impatiently

for you to come beside me

my heart's broken all around

i'm tired of playing now

i'm tired of getting beatten down

just because of this

you couldn't resist

breaking me..

go ahead try to make me

you couldn't exist because of this

stupid game

oh you're so lame....

you put me to shame..

i already hate this game...


trying to get more stuff..having writer's block here....like it so far? just let me know...

ops: ...that would be me ..yet again

"watch out for the flying mokeys!"

-Esther

[Esther]

I edited Softspoken...and added some more songs..go check 'em out..

[Esther]

Originally Posted by Esther

I edited Softspoken...and added some more songs..go check 'em out..

PLEASE...and THANK YOU..oh..also an update..probably next week i'll add my pics up on my Myspaces...
here's my regular one
www.Myspace.com/15455131